In High School at around 16 years old I had terrible self confidence issues as well as a problem with my emotions. I wanted to kill myself but was always too scared to do it. Now I am 19 and in college I have not had any problems or thoughts of suicide in years but lately it has been so hard to get out of bed that I am failing my Biology class and my Intro to teaching course. And the worst part is that I can't even force myself to care about it. My parents confronted me today about my grades and I couldn't lie to them. But I can't tell them about this feeling I get and the desire to stay in bed. I just can't I don't want to tell them because all they will think is that I am selfishly making up an excuse to make their anger go away. I had my first thought of dying today. i thought, after my Dad just kept repeating You should be ashamed of yourself over and over that if something bad happened to me then he would regret those words. Is there something wrong with my brain and should I see a doctor? This is not some kind of stupid Troll or whatever I just want to know if I can be happy and get out of bed in the morning again. I feel trapped and I just can't seem to get out again.
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Please seek help. It sounds like you are suffering needlessly from depression.
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Sounds as if you are very depressed. I agree with the guidance counselor suggestion but with the additional suggestion that you talk to a psychologist or psychiatrist rather soon.
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your college should have a guidance counselor or similar person - make an appointment and get their opinion.