Well about 4 weeks ago, I cut myself for the first time. And it was quite severe, about 80 cuts and it was bleeding really badly on my hands and wrist. I just got really pissed off with my mum and started crying and then cut myself.
Then I thought later on at about 10:30 I should do it again, because I hadn't done enough or it wasn't painful enough. And then about 2 weeks later
I had big problems in the past, but they seemed to be all sorted and I hadn't really been experiencing those problems for about 1 year and out of the blue they all started coming back to me and made me get really depressed and sad.
Then just recently, I was thinking of just killing myself or letting my life go before ending myself. like failing in school, having sex with guys becoming a total looser/slut and smoking. I also felt/sometimes randomly (still do now) feel like I am so powerless and have no self worth and so pointless life and its all just sadness and going to be horrible in the future. Also was thinking of becoming emo, but then I don't really know what group I am in like i'm nothing?
Am I like possessed or just depressed But I don't understand why it would come back randomly all of a sudden after a year and then have suicidal thoughts/ not knowing who I am. And it was very sudden and all very sad with bad thoughts about life.
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Then I thought later on at about 10:30 I should do it again, because I hadn't done enough or it wasn't painful enough. And then about 2 weeks later
I had big problems in the past, but they seemed to be all sorted and I hadn't really been experiencing those problems for about 1 year and out of the blue they all started coming back to me and made me get really depressed and sad.
Then just recently, I was thinking of just killing myself or letting my life go before ending myself. like failing in school, having sex with guys becoming a total looser/slut and smoking. I also felt/sometimes randomly (still do now) feel like I am so powerless and have no self worth and so pointless life and its all just sadness and going to be horrible in the future. Also was thinking of becoming emo, but then I don't really know what group I am in like i'm nothing?
Am I like possessed or just depressed But I don't understand why it would come back randomly all of a sudden after a year and then have suicidal thoughts/ not knowing who I am. And it was very sudden and all very sad with bad thoughts about life.
Thanks will give 10pts best answer :)
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DEMONIC! . C a doktor/sykiatrist/sykologist.