What was this paralysis when I was awake/asleep

I live in Portland Oregon. It felt like someone was behind me laying on my bed,
holding me and almost rape like feeling sexually, a vibrating in my lower spine and back bone area,
I was not hallucinating this. Even whispering in my ear when feeling this physically raping feeling.

At the end the spirit behind me whispering in my ear said, "do you like that"? And I Gasped/gulped "yes"

Do you do drugs? I bet you do... ******* drug addict. I'm kidding, what you had is what is called an "Astral dream". This happens when your consciousness is awake but you are asleep, is a strange and inherited thing. You listen to real sound while on your sleep and you brain creates this images according to those sounds and also textures your body is in. It makes you think you are awake, some people get desperate because you can't either talk or move so you think your whole body is paralyzed or so and is desperating.